She sat at her windowsill looking out, the night was peaceful,
And yet her mind wasn’t.
She tried to reign her thoughts in, to not think anymore,
And yet, her mind wasn’t hers to control.
She watched the dark clouds flit by, carrying all that darkness,
And yet, the darkness in her heart stayed.
She turned away, trying to rid herself of the painful memories,
And yet, the memories stayed fresh.
She tried telling herself that it was over, that she could move on,
And yet, the tears continued to fall.
She swatted the tears away, angrily,
And yet, they continued to fall.
She would move on, she told herself,
And yet, she knew she would always carry the pain.
She would forget, she told herself,
And yet, she knew she would always have the love.
She would be happy, she told herself,
And yet, never as happy as she could have been,
She shook her head, trying to rid herself of her thoughts,
And yet, she knew the memories would always stay…